Day 14!

I've had fun the last few days just playing around with mark making. I really haven't had an agenda, just kind of letting the pen/pencil do the work. I have been looking at loosening up and really observing the power and subtlety of lines. 

I've also been painting and trying to look at my paintings in a new way, not as something I'm trying to conquer or accomplish but simply as a playful exercise, like drawing. I'm really starting to breathe life into them and go into them. I had a dream recently where I suddenly realized I was dreaming. I knew I had to act immediately before I went back into the dream, that of dreaming which feels like and becomes reality in a sense. I knew this was not reality but whatever I wanted it to be, freedom! I decided I needed to do something that I could otherwise never do. I could do anything! I was in my bedroom but there was a huge tv on top of the dresser. I decided to jump inside it. Once I got through, my view opened up to a huge expanse of space on the beach and then in the ocean where a huge whale was swimming around. At this point, I guess I began to go back into the dream. I noticed I was halfway in the tv and halfway out and their were shards of glass all around. I was basically stuck and had lost control. But I bring this whole experience up because I feel like I'm starting to hit on this with my painting. I'm not there yet and I still keep getting stuck but there is this point when I'm swimming out in the ocean with the whale and my critical mind has been washed away. I see that I can have some say in my reality and the way I look at life. These paintings are reflections of my experience and I just need to jump through the tv with confidence.